I am very sorry to hear about your loss. You and your family are in my prayers. I know this is a difficult time for you but, I invite you to read Revelation 21:3, 4 and Psalms 37:10, 11 for comfort. Jehovah God promises to end death and suffering forever. He also promises that very soon wickedness will not be anymore. Just imagine living in a world where you never experience pain or hurtful thoughts. In order to receive these blessings all we need to do is continue to take in accurate knowledge of Jehovah God and his Son Jesus Christ. I will be happy to help you learn more about what God has in store for mankind. You and your family are in my prayers.